No idea why the previous post is in the draft but happen to see that so post it. 

I woke up from a dream, and now i remember everything... I know what i want. Security is what i want in my relationship. I don't want to feel insecure anymore.

Change everything.

I wanted to save this space, to write about him. i doesn't want to remove his picture as well. but i guess its time to change everything.

 

 

Why am I still hurt when i see this...

Can love be as simple as just caring for each other?

Can I keep having the butterflies in my stomach when he look at me?

Can my heart skips a beat when he touches me?

Can Love always be beautiful and happy like dating days?

Can I always have his attention after marriage?

Sometime i wonder why i dont feel this way anymore...

So many questions and needs... 

My happiness come from unrealistic drama or movies. I know it is unrealistic, but can love be beautiful? I just want to feel wanted and i need the attention that i needed.

生不出。。。有点烦。。。

开心，为什么和他在一起就这么难？

I can't believe that i am actually writing about this.

Oh gosh! My bro is married!

His wedding is actually what i really really wanted! All my life i have been thinking of getting married somewhere, but not Asian country. Hmm i wanted to be hold by my mother and she will walk down with me.

And yes! I wanted a dance! The bride and groom dance! Classic dance! Everything is like fairytale to me man... So emotional and so many thoughts after watching his wedding on live earlier on... I really really hope that i can be there... Suck to have covid now! If not i will definitely fly there to attend!